“You just want us to volunteer so assuage your guilt,” one of my offspring lamented to me. I immediately denied it, but upon further reflection, I realized that I did feel guilty. Guilty that I have so much when people around me have so little. Guilty that our driver sits around waiting for us for hours, while we have a good time. Guilty that if I’m not doing something, I’m not a good person. As I prayed about this God showed me something interesting.
I felt the Lord said, ‘Many people look at all the suffering in the world and conclude that I don’t exist. When you see suffering and injustice, you question my goodness. Both are unbelief.’
Oh boy, that’s not good, I want to be a person of faith! My husband Jor likes to quote the scripture, “let every man be a liar, God is faithful.” God set up this world and “righteousness and justice are the foundation of his throne.” Where there is unrighteousness, it’s not God’s fault.
But what about God preventing things from happening? I felt like He said, ‘I intervene more than anyone will ever know. Where I don’t intervene, I have a larger plan that you cannot understand. So it comes down to trust. Would you believe someone if they told you that Jor tortured someone? No. That is not his character. So don’t believe that I do evil, that is not my character.’
Woah. When I asked where the guilt came from, he said, ‘That is false guilt. You see a need and you try to fulfill it apart from me. Then you feel guilty when it doesn’t work out. Your job is to do what I call you to do and trust Me with the injustices you see around you.’
Wow, that helped me so much. God wants us to enjoy our lives, not feel all kinds of false guilt for having it so well. I didn’t choose to be born in the middle class or in the USA. This is the “lot” in life that God had me. So my motto is to enjoy life, be a blessing as God leads and trust him for the big problems, like poverty!